Thursday, April 17, 2008

What to write...

It has been a while since my last post. I actually have one started based on part of Psalm 16... but for reasons only known to the Father, I am unable to finish is right now. I know that for that post He has something different in mind... I will listen and wait for His prompting.

Right now... we are just getting through the days with faith and hope. A week and a half ago my husband took his father to the hospital. He is 90 years young and has lived a healthy life. When he first went in we thought it was pneumonia. 5 days later we found out he has cancer.

In the same way, the Spirit helps us in our weakness. We do not know what we ought to pray for, but the Spirit himself intercedes for us with groans that words cannot express. And he who searches our hearts knows the mind of the Spirit, becuase the Spirit intercedes for the saints in accordance to God's will. ~Romans 8:26-27

When we learn a loved one is nearing the end of his or her life a wave of emotions hit. In a way the mourning process has begun. Not only are our lives filled with the daily responsibilities we have been given, but our days are now filled with nursing care, paperwork, cooking extra meals... emotional stresses. I know that right now, the words won't come from my heart to my fingers on this keyboard. How I wish I could be here everyday pouring out my heart and visiting the blogs I love so dearly. There is so much filling our days that when my head hits the pillow and I don't 'have the words to pray...the Spirit is there... interceding.

Father, I thank you for your grace, you goodness and the hope that is in you and your son Jesus. I thank you for this precious time we have... I thank You for placing me in a family where love abounds for each other and for Jesus! I thank you for Your Spirit - right there, praying when I cannot, giving me strength!


elaine @ peace for the journey said...

Some seasons of life require a pause...

This is one of them for you and your family. You are at a point of exhaustion...both physically and mentally, and God would have you rest. Perspective comes with rest, and that is what I am praying for all in this time of transition.

Some of our deepest understandings about life are birthed in such seasons. God asks us to put one foot in front of the other...walking it thru with him as our Guide.

One of my favorite verses for walking this journey thru is from Isaiah, as God is instructing his people on how they are to return to Promise from their season of captivity.

“Depart, depart, go out from there! Touch no unclean thing! Come out from it and be pure, you who carry the vessels of the LORD. But you will not leave in haste or go in flight; for the LORD will go before you, the God of Israel will be your rear guard.” (Isaiah 52:11-12).

Yahweh (Covenant God) takes the lead and Elohim (Creator Universal) follows behind.

Our task for the journey?

Finding ourselves nestled safely in between. It's the high calling and privilege of our lives to abide in such trust. May you find your rest within our Father's arms that reach from our beginning all the way to our end. What a glorious embrace!


littlerad said...

My prayers are with you durning your time of need... I understand what you are going through, you are not alone...

Ang baylis said...

Hi, Kristen.
I've been here a few times to check on you and knew something was probably up. I'm so sorry for what you guys are going through. I'd love to say I can't relate, but I can. I will keep you in my prayers. I love how Elaine put it, a season to "pause". And... remember that you are not alone!
Much love to you this morning,
Angie xoxo

Lelia Chealey said...

I was in the nursing field for 15+ yrs and the last couple years I worked hospice. I've worked with both elderly & children & it just doesn't matter the age of the person, when you watch someone come to the last chapter of their life book, it is always hard to want to close the book. Life is life and whether young or old it is hard to let go of. Praying that God gives you as many days with your father in law. Sounds like you are all a strong, supportive & loving group. That's so important for him. Bless you as you take on more than your normal routine. God will give you the strenght you need to do more.

Ang baylis said...

Just stopping by to see if you have posted recently! I pray you are well. Take good care!
Angie xoxo