This past week's reading included 2 Chapters on the roots of insecurity. I had a good cry I have to say after reading these words... "Simply put, if you didn't get to be a child when you were young, you suffered a loss of innocence." and "When they are forced to grow up too quickly, they lose something that no one can give back." My heart ached... for me. I was so sad for the little girl whose parents divorced when she was in the 5th grade. Yes, that's when I lost some of the innocence of being a child. I recall with such fondness my life prior to my parent's divorce. I think I was always happy back then. Those warm memories of Christmas, summers, swimming... after their divorce I had happy times. But I remember so much sadness. I remember worry - worrying about my mom when I was with my dad and worrying about my dad when I was with my mom. In essence, I grew up when I wasn't ready to take on those types of feelings and responsibilities. Of course those weren't what my responsibilites were... but nevertheless it happened. When I cried about that loss, I did not feel anger toward my parents. My tears were those of compassion for a little girl that was me. The Lord had and has that same compassion for us. He loves us and never leaves us! I am thankful that Jesus has been my rock... my security. That he continues to love me... I may have lost a part of my life when I was young, but he sure is blessing this portion of my life abundantly! I can't go back and change the past. But I can live in the freedom that the past was used by the Lord to work for the good! I am clinging to Romans 8:28!
I better get going... 15 minutes until start time!
Love you all so much!
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Hugs, friend.
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